Underneath the kitschy design printed on the cardboard shell,
the kleenex box is an alligator - waiting to bite a hand, to twist it's victim to the ground in pain.
Sitting inanimate in the corner, telling everyone that a cute little cube couldn't possibly have teeth. Occasionally someone will tempt the box, reaching for a tissue and retreating quickly away to the other side of the room. The box could bite that hand, but instead it waits.
That flowery box could bite any hand, could turn an innocent reach for a tissue into crippling despair. It could bite the hand of the boy that got skis for his birthday. It could bite the hand of the girl that got the chickens she always wanted. It could bite the hand of the man with the beautiful wife, or the woman who never frowned. But the tissue box is cruel, and it waits for his hand.

It waits for the hand of the boy coming home to nobody. It waits for the hand of the boy who had to stop learning to have fun so he could learn to be a man. It waits for the hand of the boy who has not seen his family in 154 days.
The kleenex box bites the boy because of all the times he came home and listened to music with his brother. It bites the boy because of all the lessons he was taught by his father. It bites the boy because his mother loved him. It bites the boy because his sister secretly made him smile. It bites the boy because the boy had everything, and he never even glanced toward the tissue box. It bites the boy because he believed that it did not have teeth.
The kleenex box bit, and it left it's teeth on the floor next to the boy. The boy who can't wake up in the morning, the boy who can't write like he used to, the boy who can't remember what it was like to have parents. The box bit the boy who has nothing anymore.

Couldn't have had a better first post. So sad and beautiful and full of everything. Welcome to the wonderful world of blogging. So glad you're here!
ReplyDeleteThis was absolutely heart wrenching to read. Thanks for being willing to put yourself out there for do that we can learn from you. You are amazing and God truly will lift you up in your time of need. Keep up the writing.
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ReplyDeleteI'm teary. Please continue to write, it's a peaceful gasp of chilling fresh air.
ReplyDeleteI'm teary. Please continue to write, it's a peaceful gasp of chilling fresh air.
ReplyDeleteThis was amazing! So beautiful to see this in such a creative perspective. I understand this, nothing has ever made more sense. Such a great post, really inspirational!!
ReplyDeleteYou make me want to hug you and you know we are not huggers. Keep writing. Its beautiful!
ReplyDeleteWith all the events, I appreciate your words as they come from a young man so close to the sadness. I hope your words flow and you again smile.
ReplyDeleteWow! I love this first blog. You gathered my attention and then caught me off guard, just like the box of Kleenex.
ReplyDeleteI love you Zane! You have an amazing way with words!
ReplyDeleteI love you Zane! You have an amazing way with words!
ReplyDeletek im way impressed zane....and the pic of your parents and you and porter at the end is sooo precious!! I love it
ReplyDeleteWhat a thought provoking post. My heart is full. Sending love from Tennessee to you. ♡
ReplyDeleteWhat a creative way to put it ! :D keep on writing and you will see this through. Oh how I want to hug you too , just know that you're never alone :) one day you will be reunited and they will show you just how proud they are of you for being so strong and for letting their memories live on. Know you are loved and never ever alone :) Heaps of love and hugd from Kiribati <3 :)
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