ghosts

it's been a while since i've wanted to write.  hmmm... maybe that's a lie, but it's been a while since i've actually done it.

it's been a while of feeling the ghost of creation stir inside of me, wishing that i would let him out and finally write the beautiful thing that i've hid under 5 netflix series, 30 days of skiing, 300 naps, 6 haleys, and a whole lot of me putting on "my best face" and not letting anyone see the 7 ghosts inside of me.

to be honest, i'm not quite sure who i am anymore.  i don't know what happened to me that has made me so uncomfortable around capital letters and lower case emotions.  not all lower case emotions, just the one's that might reveal how just how many ghosts i let harbor in my heart.

now i'm realizing that i sound a bit like a sociopath but i promise that my ghosts aren't the haunting type.  they are actually the friendly type that make me want to write with capital letters and feel with lower case emotions.  in fact, it's not my ghosts, but me that scares me a bit. 

so now that i feel like there's nobody listening and my creation ghost has pushed me to write in my own name again.. i can finally start to let my ghosts out

with capital letters

and lowercase emotions

zane